Do you mind if I love your significant other?

Dear Diary,

I know I should not do this. I know I should not like him from the start. He is really easygoing and cheerful around people and I like it. And I sometimes flirt at him and he also flirts at me. We know that we are kidding when we do that. But somehow deep down I didnt. I wish he werent kidding.

I know from the start he is already taken by someone else, why am I even trying to like him. Gonna blame my fragile heart for being so emotional (baperan) towards someone's behavior.

I know he is not worth the catch. He is not that cute. He is not that smart. Sometimes he is also stupid. But he is really friendly and we joke on the same level. He is kinky too which I love about him. LOL And another significant fact is that he is someone else's boyfriend. And they are going years and left me no spot in his life.

I should stop thinking about him and considering him. Idk. Maybe I just need someone else's affection and I also need to give mine to someone else.

Xoxo,
Hani