September 8, 2020

Highlight until Q3

Dear diary.....

I know its not really the end of 2020 yet... but I'd like to highlight some "happenings" of 2020..

Many things happened on 2020, one of them c/ovid 19... it stir up worldwide not only my country.. it also affects my daily life. I used to go to office everyday but starting from mid March, I work from home.. I rarely go out... because I'm also afraid of the v/irus..

Enough with the sad talk, idk that this one korean boy group can bring me this much happiness.. yes I'm now a kpoper πŸ˜‚ Idk SF9 can be one of the source of my happiness, especially that one particular member, called my love.. kidding πŸ˜‚ he's Kim Inseong. 

Oh God i could tell many things about him because he has so many charms... I dont know such group boy member can make me totally fall in love with him 😭 you dont know how lovely he is, how gorgeous he is, how embarrassing he is ahahahhh~

Idk much about the future but for now let me love this man only 😭 I know its impossible he knows my presence but damn i fee like its okay to have this one-sided love </3 

Idk how many things I have done for the first timw because of him, buying so many albums because I wanted to win a video call fansign (but in the end I didnt γ… γ… ), learning korean formally with a teacher in private session, and many more...

Inseong really teaches me whats hardwork is, how being nice is, how being sociable is, how being smart is, how being lovely... but also how to be embarrassing πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

Kim Inseong, I love all of your perfection but your imperfection as well....

Hani,
yours forever ❤

9/8/2020

January 2, 2020

Hello, 2020

I dont need fancy resolutions this year. But I really need to get up to my sense. I really need to lose my weight because I feel really obese and its hard for me to move faster. And my body get exhausted easily. I also need to work out more so my membership gym doesnt go to waste. And I need to pass the civil exam test and become a civil servant. And the most important thing that I need to love myself more, forgive myself more, so that I can give love to others. I dont ask much but I really want to start a serious relationship with someone this year. I dont feel like I am being chased by the deadline, but this loneliness is killing me. My friends, my coworkers, my families, which keeps me alive. And also coffee. I also need to be more effortful with my cooking (aka risoles) so that I can start selling them to people.

Too many πŸ˜…

Okay thats enuf

Gbye