I would like to tell this happy moment before I forget the details, so I should preserve it in writings~
If you have read the previous post, I just had a date with the boy I told in my previous post. 😚☺🙈🙈🙈
Few weeks ago, I was scrolling my Twitter timeline and saw his tweet. He said that he just bought Gundala movie ticket. I replied his tweet saying "ihh ga ajak2 beli tiket aku jg mau nonton" more or less. I dont think he would private message me and asked me to watch with him because he just bought another ticket 😂😂
Its like your dream crush has asked you to go on a date lol~~
Fastforward to this day, we met in the mall and watched the movie. After the movie, we had dinner. He told me many stories, mostly about his work 😂 but sokay because I like him 😂😂😂 he is such an eye candy and also a gentleman, he admits my presence and ask for permission if he wanted to look at his phone 😍 little thing matters haha. He also paid all the bills. I really wanted to be the one that pays the dinner but he politely refuse the offer.
Mas D why are you very sweet and charming ☺
I'll never forget this day, thats why Im writing this post. I ask to Allah that can I get a partner as charming as you 🙈 I hope everything the best for you, I pray the favors always in you.
Regards,
Hani, the one who's extremely happy tonite~
August 9, 2019
Malam itu Aku Datang Terlambat
Malam itu aku datang terlambat.
Terlihat dari kejauhan beberapa teman yang telah ku ketahui sejak lama. Aku mengamati seluruh kawan yang datang ke kedai kopi itu. Mataku dengan cepat tertuju padamu. Hatiku sedikit berdesir. Ah manis sekali dirimu ternyata. Aku cepat menyadari kalau itu kamu. Aku telah mencari tahu tentangmu sebelum pertemuan malam itu. Profil daringmu sungguh mengesankan. Fotomu yang kau pasang di tampilan gambar pun cukup lucu. Bagaimanapun juga, kamu yang asli tetap jauh lebih mengenakkan mata.
Aku segera mengetahui, bahwa pada malam itu, aku telah jatuh hati pada dirimu. Aku sangat berusaha untuk mengatur ritme perasaanku. Ditambah lagi, saat aku kebingungan mencari tempat duduk, kau segera bangun dan memberikan kursimu untukku. Aduhai sungguh gentleman sekali dirimu. Kau pun bergegas mencari kursi lain untuk dirimu duduki. Dan kau menggeser kursi barumu itu di sebelahku. Sesungguhnya aku takut kau bisa mendengar detak jantungku saat itu. Beruntunglah desibel detak cardia-ku yang sangat rendah tidak bisa didengar oleh dirimu.
Malam itu aku tidak bisa menyembunyikan senyumku yang sangat sumringah. Aku sangat bersuka cita malam itu. Sudah lama aku tidak mendamba seseorang. Salah satu temanku bertanya apakah dirimu mengesankan. Aku hendak segera menjawabnya dengan jawaban "Iya!" dengan sangat meyakinkan, namun aku urungkan. Aku berusaha menjawab dengan jawaban diplomatis agar aku tidak terlalu terlihat mengagumimu. Hahaha walaupun kini aku menyesal melakukannya.
Dirimu sungguh mudah membawa pembicaraan menjadi lebih hidup. Aku pun dengan mudah mengimbangi topik yang kau sampaikan. Sesekali kau lemparkan candaan. Aku tertawa lepas. Setiap aku tertawa, tingkat kekagumanku kepadamu bertambah. Di saat itu pula, aku berpikir bagaimana cara mendapatkanmu. Malam itu aku sangat bahagia. Sayangnya aku harus bergegas pulang. Ibuku telah mencariku. Selama perjalanan pulang, aku yang tak bisa menahan kegembiraan ini, bercerita kepada 2 orang temanku melalui aplikasi mengobrol daring. Kebetulan, ke-2 temanku ini juga mengenal baik dirimu. Oleh karena itu, aku bercerita kepada mereka, karena mereka mengetahui tentang dirimu. Mulai dari sini, kebodohan diriku dimulai.
Kita sebut saja ke-2 temanku ini bernama Anggrek dan Mawar. Aku berkata kepada mereka berdua bahwa aku telah jatuh hati kepada dirimu. Anggrek merespon kisahku malam itu selayaknya teman perempuan memberi komentar kepada temannya yang sedang dimabuk asmara. Namun, aku menyadari ada sesuatu yang aneh dengan umpan balik yang diberikan oleh Mawar. Karena aku terlalu bahagia, aku tidak terlalu mempedulikan respon tersebut pada akhirnya.
Keesokan harinya saat aku sedang di jalan menuju lokasi tempat kerjaku, Anggrek yang kebetulan berteman dekat juga dengan Mawar tiba-tiba memberikanku pesan singkat daring, dimana isinya menjelaskan bahwa dia memberikanku peringatan untuk jangan berharap kepada dirimu, karena dirimu sedang mendekati Mawar. Aku otomatis tertawa membaca pesan tersebut. Kenapa hidup ini kadang terlalu inisiatif untuk memberikan hal yang tidak terduga. Aku merasa orang paling bodoh. Tidak bisa dibohongi aku pun merasa gengsi. Namun, nasi sudah menjadi bubur, aku pun berusaha menerima fakta tersebut, walaupun itu sulit.
Teruntuk dirimu dan Mawar, aku doakan yang terbaik untuk kalian ♡
-Hani Awaliyah
August 7, 2019
The Perks of Focusing at ONE TASK ONLY
Wed, August 7 2019
Today is like any other day. I was doing my tasks. But at usual, another task will come up when I focused at that task. In the morning, I had goals to finish creating User Stories for UMS and LMS. It turned out until the lunch time I havent finished any of them because I was disturbed by another task that pop at the same time which was more urgent.
Anyway I had Sumorice - Spicy Gyu Don for lunch. It was really goodddd. Now Im craving it lol. And thank you Grab for giving the promo to cut the original price. So it was quite cheaper. It was a nice lunch indeed.
After lunch, I also checked another tasks and cant finish my first goals. I was asked to check urgent stories that need to be upped in Production. They were about related to API Grade. Thats why it was way more urgent than creating user stories. The problem is really significant because the student's group assignment grade doesnt exist in their LMS. So the UMS team need to fix that. After fixing it in Develop, our VP Engineering deployed it to Staging Env. One of the QA and I checked if the issue worked well in Staging. Finally it went well. So after that the QA did the smoke test. And then the VP deployed it to the Production. I'm glad it was also no problem in there.
When the worktime is over, after magrib time, around 7 pm. I tried to finish my first goals, which is creating stories for LMS. Why I should finish them by today, because tomorrow we will do SPM LMS, so I have it them to be ready so I can finish the SPM faster. I was really focused when I was finishing it because I was not doing another thing rather than creating user stories. I was really relieved because I can finish it in only 1 hour! Lol.
Today is really indescribable for me. My body is in my office, working and finishing my tasks, but my mind is somewhere else. I can not focus. And my head is aching. And it is still now. I am unknowingly sad today. My feeling is down. In the end of the day when the working time is over, I cried. I cried without knowing the reason. I tried to think what was the cause of me feeling blue like this, I cant seem to find the answer. And it made my headache worse.
During my trip to home, I tried to find the answer. There are some possibilities. Well maybe I am exaggerating, but doesnt everyone who feels blue overthinks everything? 😭 I think its because I failed. Failed in what? I also dont know. But I think I feel failed in general.
If I tried to breakdown them, I feel failed because:
1) I think I have hurt him, he doesnt reply my text anymore, when I tried to ask him why, he confronted me. I was torn by his response. I know we arent a thing anymore. But it hurts me when he ignores me.
2) I envy with them who has privilege in having a good-looking face and body. I know this is a relative and subjective topic, but I can't lie that I also want to be pretty. The ones who are pretty doesnt have to suffer if they like someone, because that someone will for sure like her if they both are in single status. Or in another case, they dont need to look for that someone. They dont need to look for somebody to love or like. Because someone else will fall in love with them and tell them that they like her. And she doesnt have to suffer the heartbreak about the rejection. Or the feel about one-sided crush. I know I sound so petty about this topic, but it is the reality. I really want to be prettier, so I dont need to do big effort in liking or falling in love with someone.... I am exhausted with all of one-sided crushs that I have.. I am tired with all the rejection. Its hard T.T
3) I feel failed because I cant pass my last interview in a big start up company. They stood me up for 2 weeks with no email from them. I know its time for me to let go. Its time for me to fix the lack of skill which I dont have, so I can excel the next interview I will have.
4) I feel failed in my current company because I'm afraid that my close friend will leave me. She told me she will resign soon. She is the one that I always look for answers. She is the one that I discuss about everything whether its about work or life in general. She helps me unconditionally. I'm scared that I can't finish my work properly without her. This is the realest fomo I've ever had.
5) I feel shitty. I keep gaining weight whereas I should start losing weight, because its dangerous for my body. I also never exercise these days. I feel ugly too. I eat too much.
I dont know why I feel like this.... I think I have been too far from Allah. Ya Allah help me ease my feeling. Please lessen my burden.. I thank You for everything. I ask You for mercy if I've been far from You. Please revive my Iman.. Astagfirullahaladzim.. T.T
August 5, 2019
4 DAYS ITINERARY BANGKOK AND CHA AM 2018
Dear my reader(s),
Its been quite a while, I havent posted any single post in my blog *sweeping the floor*. I dont know I have been always wanting to write here writing about my experience or just sharing my thoughts. But it always seems hard to find time. Because now I have the reasons to write, lets share something valuable here.
Going to Bangkok was always my wish after I already had fulfilled my bucketlist to go to Malaysia and Singapore (well I havent written those two trips in this blog, later if I find time, I will). I went to Spore on 2016 and Malaysia on 2017. So I planned in 2018 I need to go to another country, and the nearest after MY and Spore is Thailand. I already had looked for ticket since April, but I found the cheap ticket on May, so I asked around to look for companion, because I need to book fast otherwise, that cheap ticket will be gone, so once I found the companion, although only 1 person, that would do. So thank God, one of my bestie was willing to be my companion to go to Thailand, she also agreed that only she and I that will be going in this trip. So we bought that return ticket (pulang-pergi) for 1.1 million Rupiahs. It is super super cheap, considering the normal price will be starting from 1.7 million rupiah. And talking about the flight date, I asked the ticket seller (I bought from a private account selling cheap AirAsia ticket), if is there any available date, and finally we decided that we will choose December 2nd, 2018 as our departure flight, and Dec 5th as our return flight.
My bestfriend and I didnt talk about the trip after we bought the ticket because it was still far from the departure date. Towards to December, around early November, I asked her if she had time to plan the trip with me, I mean for making itinerary. So we met and decided on some places. Actually lucky me, my coworker just came from Bangkok in few days before the trip planning day. So I asked her if I could have her itinerary, and she sent me the link. My bestfriend and I checked the itinerary and we agreed to have some similar destinations but we also gave it a bit change because we wanted to go to different destination. Apart from plnning the itin, we also booked hostels and bought simcard, transportation card, and attraction ticket we will use there from Klook. The total days of our trip would be 4 days and 3 nights. The complete schedule along with the photos I will explain below:
DAY 1 - Dec, 2nd 2018
This day was our departure date. It was sunday, so I told my best friend to stay over the day before so she wont miss the flight, because her home is quite far from the airport. The flight was on 7 am, so my friend and I went to the airport at 5 am. My dad and my mom took us the airport. We arrived at 5.30 am, yeah it is pretty near. So we were waiting for the flight.
The flight took in Terminal 3 in Soekarno-Hatta International Airport. And the gate is quite far, I understood why its far because our airlines is AirAsia lol. The flight was nice and so so, and we also met 3 Jakartan girls who would gonna have 4 days trip in Bangkok, they sit next to me lol. And there was funnier moment but I'll tell later because we are still on Day 1. We touched down Don Mueang Airport at 10.30 am if im not mistaken. And we immediately took care the immigration thingy. And it took quite a while, so we only can get out of the airport at 12 pm. We also redeem our voucher from Klook to get our simcard in the airport.
So the schedule on the Day 1 is listed below:
Check-in hostel
Shopping in Chatuchak Market
Redeem voucher to get transportation card in Siam Center
Going to our hostel meant that we have to get to Bangkok from the airport. So we took a bus from the airport. We took A2 Bus that is going to Mo Chit Terminal. Getting off from the bus, we looked for the Mo Chit BTS Station. Taking stairs by bringing our luggage was quite hard lol but we had to do it. Because we didnt have the transportation card yet or its called Rabbit Card, we had to buy the one time ticket. We bought the ticket with destination to Ratchacewi Station, because it is the nearest station to our hostel. If you guys are confused how do we know the map or route of the BTS, you can search NaviTime in play store or app store because I use that app. The BTS fee from Mo Chit to Ratchacewi is quite pricey, around 42 Baht or 21.000 rupiahs. Arriving in Ratchacewi station was another struggle for us, because it was scorching hot and we need to find the way to our hostel, we already use the google maps, but we stuck and turned out we were getting further from our end point. But after quite a while, finally we made it and we arrived at our hostel.
I'll continue the post later. But for now I'll post the draft anyway~ lol
Can loving someone be effortless?
Hello, long time no see after a few months after graduation, I havent had the time to write anything here or its more correct if I said I have put a lot of time for this one specific person.
I dont know how come he unexpectedly came into my life. Lol hell no. I knew I let him come into my life. Therefore, in this post I will be telling you how he become an individual who has a special place in my heart (urgh sweet but cringey). I'm writing this post just in case I forgot how we met or in the end he is just not the one for me. So, I'll let this post be a memory how I ever had a special place in his heart and vice versa lol.
I'll be continuing this post maybe later.. but I'll just post this draft anyway.
Longest Blackout Ever in Jakarta and many other big cities in Java Island! Aug, 4th 2019
Minggu, 4 Agustus 2019, longest day ever and was chaotic for me. I thought that will be another usual sunday where I'll be meeting my friends outside. We promised to meet at Manggarai Station. Then we would continue to take Bekasi Train and would get off at Cakung Station, because we intended to visit Aeon JGC. But the universe had another story for every of us that took the KRL at that noon.
When the train was arriving at the Jatinegara Station, one station away from Manggarai Station, suddenly the train was turning off its ac and the lamp. Upon the arriving in Jatinegara Station, the officer told us to get off from the train and there has been technical electrical issue. At the same time, I also got the message from my mom that told her train stopped in Rawa Buaya Station. Our phone also got no reception. My friends and I assumed the blackout was really massive that it can stop the KRL from working and screwed up the phone provider's reception.
Jatinegara Station was full packed of people. My friends and I were confused whether we should continue to go to Aeon JGC or had a plan B to go to another mall/place. We tried to book an online riding car, but the reception is so bad that we got no connection. So at least we decided to go out of station first. Getting out of the station was another problem, it was really full and it was hard for us to get out, and the queuing was in a mess. Finally we got out of the station.
Outside the station, we tried again to book Grab Car, but still no reception. We tried to stop conventional Taxi, but no empty taxi we could get on. So one of my friend told me we should change our meeting point to Kota Kasablanka, because we can reach it by taking Angkot. Then, we got on the Angkot, we change the Angkot one time to another Angkot, and finally we can reach the mall. In there, we immediately did Dzuhur Pray and had lunch in Ramen place. We also had a chitchat and shuffled the Arisan's winner. Too bad, it wasnt me who won it. Its okay so I can save more lol.
Going home was another issue for me, because I was already far from home and I usually take KRL to go home if I had meeting in Kota Kasablanka. Because it was easier, faster and cheaper for me. But my friends and I know that the KRL havent worked already, so we decided to use the TransJakarta to go home. Fortunately, we can book online riding bike to go to the Bus Shelter. The trip to go home was smooth, I can touch down home safely and sound, and the happiest fact was the electricity was back already. Alhamdulillah.
While I took a rest, I was checking my Twitter, scrolling, and I found something unpleasant. One of my friend who lives in Kalimantan, she tweeted that Jakarta's people was really exaggerating about the black out until it became the Trending Topic in Jakarta and she also laughed at us about it. She said the blackout is a common thing in Kalimantan, so we shouldn't whine so much about it. To be honest, I was really hurt and offended by her tweet. We as in Jakarta citizen feel really surprised by the blackout because one of the fastest and cheapest transportation, which is KRL was down. And added with messy phone reception. It was very chaotic for us because we never really experience this longest and massive blackout. It was really hard for me really, alhamdulillah I was with my friend, if I was not, I must be really confused, how can I go home lol.
