having a one-sided crush always hurts

today should be a very happy day since its inseong's birthday, july 12th. but since he's inactive as an idol because he's in military, nothing's really special... and another things shocks me in the morning.

one of my dear friend, recently i told her i like this one man, she knows him as well, because he's her friend, we all are good friends. i should say she's quite brave, but i thought she wont be this brave, because she asked him blatantly if she's close with this girl (the girl that both of us are suspicious of as her girlfriend)...im shocked when she showed me the screenshot.. and he answered he already has someone (and definitely not the girl i was suspicious of).. my heart sunk... as well as my feeling.

its always like this, whenever i am interested in someone, they are already with somebody else... i mean they don't really show it that they already have somebody.. and i always keep going on with the feeling and ended up getting hurt.. this one man that i like is my ideal man that i want to have and grow together in life, unfortunately he's already with someone, i wont keep this feeling anymore.. he's such a good friend, i hope i can stay as good friend with him although i cant have him..

짝사랑 진짜 싫어 사람을 혼자 좋아하는거 너무 힘들다.. 

i hate having one-sided crush, loving someone on your own is really tiring..