Its been 7 days since you were gone

Today is marked as the 7th day after the day you left. There was a tahlilan in your house. Dinda and I tried to reach your house before the tahlilan ends. But we were stucked in the traffic. We didnt make it. We met your families. We met your mother and sister. Dinda and I also met some of our friends. 

Korean Cute Kids

There is a Youtube channel that I like called ODG. They shoot videos with kids. They shoot their reactions and opinions towards many stuffs. They also have talks with some adults such as singer and actor.

Some of them want to be actress, or simply an adult, or even dont want to be an adult because they think they have to do everything on their own. Same kid, same. I also dont want to be an adult. It only leave a headache on me.

Nonetheless, they are really really cute and they speak very well. You guys should watch them. I am gonna shout their name here, they are:

1) Hyun Ho (instagram.com/hyun_ho_0514)
2) Kim Min Seo (instagram.com/actress_minseo)
3) Chae Ah (instagram.com/chae_oh)
4) Ha Rang (instagram.com/loveankom)
5) Ji Hyo (instagram.com/jihyo514)

Or simply just go to ODG Youtube channel. My favorite talents are Hyun Ho and Min Seo! This is one of the top of my list:

https://youtu.be/sUJrHQV3IhE

Thank you ♡
Hani

감사합니다 ♡

하니

It stings a bit when seeing your IG post with your girl

Silly me opening Instagram this morning. His post in my first timeline. He posted his photo with his girl. Silly me for letting my heart be emotional about him. He indeed has a girlfriend why I even bother to like him from the first place. It hurts a bit when I saw that post. My mood got down a bit. And its still in the morning. Fml. Lol.

I looked at myself in the mirror and said to myself "Dont be too sad, dont be too hard on yourself, hani". At this point maybe I need a new crush soon, because I cant keep loving him because he's taken already. And I cant hurt my heart intentionally knowing all of this will end with a breakheart.

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And apparently you are a gemini too (not really surprised)

Dear you the curly one in my office,

Why are you so kind to me and let me get close to you, I like it when I literally can get close to you, I like it but I feel guilty because you are already taken.

I really like it when I can hold your hand and lean my head to your shoulder. I really wanna hug you. But I know its not really proper to do in workplace so I hold it in.

I hate it a bit when you are on the phone with your girl. I know jealousy shouldnt be a thing here, because we knew each other that we both were kidding when we flirt at each other. But still, a little just a little jealousy.

I know I dont stand a chance. And you are also not my type. But you were really funny and kinky and affectionate toward me and I love it.

And another fun fact I got today is that you are a gemini. A freakin' gemini. Why am I always attracted to a gemini.... DAMN. Few months ago, I were close to two geminis and I also had a date with them (of course in different time and place)... why oh why... well it doesnt matter.

The last thing, am I too selfish if I want you for real?

Xoxo,
Hani.

Edit: Its 11:54 freakin pm and I really want to chat you right now, but I know I shouldnt. Because you dont give a damn about me actually. And I should not make it really obvious that I want you so much. FML. Why am I so expressive toward other 😭 I miss you. But I'm glad tomorrow is still weekday so I can meet you.  LOL~

You went too soon, darling. We'll be missing you.

Hey, you there, hey my dear friend...

Why is everything really sudden and surprising..

I dont know you would have gone this soon...

I havent said sorry to you...

I havent met and played with you yet...

I remember once you and I still worked in our previous workplace, we had this one project together, you were always that one that can be depended on, we always talked and told each other stories even not related to work stuff..

After you resigned and I also resigned, we havent talked that much...

I really regret that I havent talked that much with you, a basic hi wouldve not hurt...

I am really sorry that I once had bad feeling towards you because you never came once we had a meetup..

I am really sorry for everything....

May Allah ease your afterlife...

May you rest in peace my dear friend, Eva Nur Aprilia.... al fatihah..

You will always be missed...

I love you.
Hani